My Childhood Life of Seclusion

Salaam alaykom dear readers!
I thought I'd share my life in seclusion as a child. I grew up until I was 18 in a very rural area 3 hours from a city. Our population was maybe somewhere around 100 and majority of that was elders. I grew up as a Christian but we where not very strict. I lived on a farm in which my parents raised cattle, however I remember milking cows and having chickens roaming around. We ate a lot of what we raised on the farm or grew in the garden, not taking many trips into the city.
It wasn't until reflecting on my child hood I realised I had this fake image that everyone was Christian. I really never thought about any other religion and in fact I never really met anyone that wasn't  a Christian. I think the first person I knew that wasn't a Christian was a Muslim man who I use to work for when I was 18 and had moved to the city. Even then I really just thought he was an immigrant and not focused on a religious difference, however I wonder if this was because he acted just like and men from the west... Anyways I remember I was in grade 8 and was confirmed as a Lutheran but just prior to confirmation  I approached my pastor and privately asked her if I could be confirmed if I didn't really believe in the  crucifixion because I wasn't able to wrap my mind around God putting His only son to die for us... God is almighty and I wasn't able to believe He had to do such a thing to forgive us all!
I wonder if this played a huge role in me thinking I could do or be anything I wanted and I was still a Christian and would be saved. Maybe this fake idea was what took me down a bad path that soon there followed. It wasn't long after this that I went into grade 9 and soon there after my life changed dramatically.
I will save that part of my life for another time.